Today was a strange day because I had to go to my grandfathers house and grab some of the things I wanted to keep before his house is sold. You see, he went into a nursing home a few months ago and it’s now time to sell his place. Grandma died a few years back and there was still a bit of her stuff there too.
It was a really weird feeling walking around his home, the home where he and Grandma had lived for over 20 years. It still smells the same and looks just as it did when he was there, but he wasn’t and he’s not going to live there again, so practicalities must take over and that’s why I was there.
It struck me, as I looked at his qualifications on the walls of his study, at his guitar in the corner, at the family photographs on every surface; that at the end of your life there is only a handful of ‘stuff’ to show that you were actually here. And unless you’re in people’s hearts and minds, there really isn’t much left at all…
And it got me thinking that life is incredibly short.
So brief and you’d better make the most of it. You’d really better be you, truly and honestly you and not live somebody else’s life because all that will be left will be a handful of stuff that really wasn’t you anyhow.
So friends, I ask you to do this for me. Take stock. Just do a quick little inventory now. No matter how sucky, low long, how frustrating or how generally crappy your day has been today, please, just take a few minutes to think about this and do something for me now. First.
Take three slow, deep breaths. Take a look around you. Are you happy? Are you comfortable in your life. Happy with the person you show to the world? Are you being you?
The awesome, loving, kind, wonderful you.
Or are you unhappy. Are you feeling that life is sucking the fun and kindness out of you?
Take a moment. Take a moment to remember who you used to be when you were at your happiest. Perhaps it was only this morning before you made the lunches, the beds, did three loads of washing, made dinner, listened to the complaints, the whinging, put everyone to bed and it’s just now you’re finding a few minutes for a cuppa or a glass of wine. Then you can relax. Relax and find you. The happy person, the person who isn’t overwhelmed with life and it’s demands.
Perhaps it was a few years back, when you were happy. Maybe life has been crushing you slowly. Bills. Work. Negative people. Unhappy people. Mean, nasty people.
Perhaps you can’t even remember how long ago that it was when you were truly happy. Perhaps you’ve been eating too much. Maybe you just can’t find the energy to go for that run or walk you keep promising yourself you’ll find time for. Perhaps you’ve been controlling everything around you to try and find something you can grab onto.
Maybe you’re living with somebody who makes you feel small. Feel afraid. Feel worthless. Maybe you’re trying to escape, but you can’t because it’s all too overwhelming. Or you’re afraid for your life.
Well friends, today is it.
Honestly, today is the day.
There really mightn’t be another and do you really want all that you are, all that you’ve been to just be a pile of stuff that people will remember you by?
Think back to the feeling you used to get as a kid.
Remember how it felt to walk barefoot on the grass.
How it felt to have no responsibilities except for playing with friends and laughing. Having fun. Being you. That awesome, wonderful, gorgeous, happy, kind, loving you.
The you at your ‘you-est’.
Well the time has come to remember that kid.
Remember who you were and who you wanted to be; and who you actually still are inside and who you WILL show the world that you are again.
Stop the madness.
Get off the wheel.
Stop playing games and get real.
Stop the worrying. Stop the excuses. Now…
Make a change. A little one. A big one. Anything. Just do something to find that perfect person you feel is in the shadows and be that kid again.
Don’t waste another day letting others control you.
No longer will you let others control your destiny or make you feel that you can’t be you.
Do me a favour and just be you.
You’re good enough.
In fact you’re probably much more awesome than you’ve ever realised!
And whenever you start to forget who you are, remember walking barefoot in the grass; the smell, the cool feeling between your toes and how light and free you were. That kid is still there.
Be that person.
Be awesome and be you.
Love to you all
Mrs Jones x